go vegetarian.

|Sunday, November 14, 2004

mayb i need a break. away frm all my troubles. away frm her. away frm this world. i'm not in the mood to do anything now. the once ever-confident me have been reduced to nth now. i'm juz so upset over myself. upset over my actions which have made someone treat me differently now. i dunno what i've done wrong, and really wish to noe. i feel very lost now. although we still talk, u seem to have became so distant frm me, as though i'll lose u any moment. after so many yrs waiting waiting and more waiting, we've finally became this close. i dunno what comments u've heard and i've been thinking what is wrong. yes u carn act as though u din hear them, i carn blame u for tt but i bliv u shld think over it alrite. frm the msgs u've sent, i can see u're really confused and i somewhat feel u're being controlled by someone now. i dunno what im gonna do now. im juz too sad to do anything. i dun even feel like talking to u now. im dont tink i'll msg u anymore. when u finally wld forgive me then come look for me. as for me i guess i'll juz leave it to fate to decide. i cannot continue living my life like in the past week or i'll break down soon. tournament's in like 7 days time, i really need to start intensixe trng to make up for the absence of trng for the past 2 months. hope i'll do ok. not expecting much.

moo.
me.

-got milk?-